Absence of Joy
four-hands piano and computer (2001)
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Absence of Joy, for piano four-hands and computer, was composed in memory of my mother, Joy. She was only 51 years old when she passed away in October 1999 from a rare lung disease called interstitial pulmonary fibrosis, a condition which causes the lungs to harden until they can no longer function. Her loss has left an irreparable hole in my life.

Shortly after her death, her closest friend had a dream in which my mother told her, "The numbers are 18, 17, 1, and 9. Make sure my son gets them." As a result, the pitches E-flat, D, B-flat, and G-flat form the foundation of this work. In addition to live signal processing, pre-recorded sounds produced the computer are derived from my mother's favorite music.


2007: Armand Hammer Hall of the Corcoran Gallery of Art, Washington, DC
2005: The University of Florida, Gainesville, FL
2004: Society of Composers Revion IV Conference, Winthrop University, Rock Hill, SC
2002: SEAMUS National Conferece, The University of Iowa, Iowa City, IA
2002: Southeastern Composers League, Mercer University, Macon, GA
2001: The University of Florida, Gainesville, FL